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Two nights before her death, she wrote an e-mail to a friend in which she admitted that she was struggling with doubt but believed she was turning the corner. She even had an affirming conversation with her spiritual mentor the night before she took her life. The immediate clinical cause, I believe, was clear. This imbalance resulted in tremendous highs and lows of both anxiety and depression in her last days. The doctors did the best they could do. But I searched for deeper answers than these clinical explanations provided. I could not sleep.
I kept going over the last days of her life — how the tragedy happened, why it happened, and what could have been different. Harriet could have found a way of escape on that fateful day — there were several possible sources she could have turned to. I was nearby. Some dear friends who nurtured and embraced her with unconditional love had planned to spend the afternoon with us. She could have waited for their support before plunging into fatal despair. In addition, she had time to reconsider the irrevocable act during the twenty-minute drive to the Did god leave us shop and the discussion she had with the store clerk.
I am certain that on that day she did not have full mental control. Her mind was saturated with the darkness of her depression, which smothered her capacity to reason. Who and what are responsible? Where is God in all this? I endured long days and nights of soul searching and coping with pain. One of my most urgent questions centered on the fact that Harriet took her own life. For many Christians, there is a stigma attached to suicide. I could not let the question rest.
I dug into the Bible for answers. My study of the Bible made it clear that suicide is not an option for anyone — especially a Christian — to use as the way out of a problem.
Among the Ten Commandments that God gave Moses was. This principle applies to suicide because suicide is self-murder. Murder destroys what God has created. His reason for this command went deeper than simply to provide stability in a civil society. It is much more sacred. Since the Bible tells us that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit 1 Corinthianswe are dishonoring the Holy Spirit when we destroy the body.
Further, suicide violates the biblical assertion that there is a way of escape from every temptation. Paul wrote that God. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.
When issues tempt or cause a person to consider suicide, that person becomes self-focused, with an inward perspective only. Finally, suicide robs the believer of future rewards in Heaven by cutting days on earth shorter than God intended. The Gospels mention rewards more than seventy times, and Paul affirmed the concept of heavenly rewards for earthly work:.
These verses confirm that God sees every struggle, when faced with faith, as valuable. God has ordained our days Psalm He has a plan and reason for every day of our lives. My study on suicide provided much clarity but little comfort.
And again, Where was God in all this? My struggle for understanding continued. At that point, the God of light and peace brought two people into my life whose words spoke volumes to me and set me on a course of discovery. One night while I was working late at the church, a young man knocked on my office window. I recognized him as a member of our church, so I let him in. He introduced himself and said he had felt a strong compulsion, which he believed to be from God, to talk to me about his own struggle with depression. I invited him to sit down and share his story. When a person falls into it, escaping the pain becomes all-consuming.
The depressed person wants nothing but to get out. Thoughts of Did god leave us dominate the mind, and without help a person will become desperate enough to take any exit that presents itself — even death. The second interaction came by way of professional counselor Ron Rolheiser. A person dying of suicide dies as does a victim of physical illness or accident, against his or her will. People die from physical heart attacks, strokes, cancer, AIDS and accidents.
Death by suicide is the same, except that we are dealing with an emotional heart attack, an emotional stroke, emotional AIDS, emotional cancer and an emotional fatality. The wisdom shared by these two individuals was helpful and comforting because it helped me better understand the victim of clinical depression. These insights pointed me in the right direction, but peace was yet some distance away. I begged God to grant me further understanding, and in time and through my continued search of the Scriptures, He did.
The first, Exodusoccurs just after God commanded Moses to go to Egypt, confront Pharaoh, and lead Israel out of bondage. Moses told God that he was not a good speaker and therefore could not do what God was asking. Who makes the deaf? Who makes the blind? Is it not I, the Lord? It is because God creates people with both abilities and disabilities that serve His purposes. The second Bible verse God opened to me was Job God is sovereign and never loses control. God takes responsibility.
He made Harriet with her particular disability, and for His all-knowing purposes, He allowed Satan to take advantage of her weakened condition. I could have stopped her death, yet I allowed it for My reasons. Trust Me with what you do not understand right now.
Harriet is with Me, fulfilling new purposes I have for her. This can be true of death by cancer, accidents, or even old age. God never leaves us. How could God ordain a deficiency in a person and then condemn him for having it? It took me about three months of prayer and seeking God to come to this conclusion. During this process, unusual things began happening that I could not explain. I am by nature a logic-driven and rational person, trained to use a biblical framework to explain everything.
Suicide is such a painful topic especially for those in the Church who wonder what God says about it. Have you lost a loved one or a friend or acquaintance to the desperate act of suicide? Come share your thoughts with us on our blog. We want to hear from you! Everyone thought she would make it.Did god leave us
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